The Farewell

"The song that angels sing
The spell that calls
The magic that might bring eternal life"

But that too must come to an end. The grand finale, the touching and fitting end to an eventful year of presidency. The farewell and the handing over of duties for good.

Awww shucks sometimes i feel abit like i cant bear to hand over the role and leave our drama club. Sure man they can sometimes be an unenthuiastic bunch but hey after working intensively with my members im really proud of our potential. Of course id skip harry potter for our farewell, i wouldnt miss it for anything.

Although it was not the majestic type of farewell with the crappy candle handing over shit in the hall or some function room, im glad they chose the langlab. It was really fun to hang out for the last time in the place drama spent so much time in. The farewell was a cosy event and there was lotsa laughter and games, even though attendance wasnt great.

Shame on those year2s who can't even spare an evening to spend with their cca mates. Yeah yeah the age old excuse of mugging for alvls. Mug yourself to death you idiots you're really disgusting and such nolifers. I dont understand how you can have absolutely no sense of belonging to your cca. =)

Thank you for the year1s for being so patient with the insane year2s who did turn up and for organising the farewell. The gifts are really cute (sock puppets hehehe)

And nope i didnt cry at the farewell kayyyy... Coz ill definitely be back next year to hound you all to death muahahahahha...

Red Thread Of Fate

Unmei no akai ito, the red thread of fate.

Everyone is connected to another person by an invisible red string tied around the little finger and the two people connected by the red string are said to be soulmates.

The thread that ties people together are meant to link them.

Not confine them.

To Never Fall In Love Again

To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part,
but now it's
disappeared.
She told me that it's all part of the choices that you're
making.
Even when you think you're right
you have to give to take.

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
When i can be on
the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more
time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
if we're
going nowhere.
Yeah we sing
if it's not enough.
And we sing
sing without a reason
to never fall in love again.

As each word slips out dangerously from my mind, the meanings behind these pieced together sentences are beginning to be harder to grasp and more difficult to type. Meanings too powerful and personal to be revealed, and strong enough to drown me should i choose to bottle them up.

I feel like im suffocating. I can see the pair of hands that are wrapped tightly around my neck, crushing my windpipe and completely knocking the breath out of me. I can feel my mouth go dry as that pair of hands slowly drain me of air. I can see the person whom those hands belong to, even as my eyesight blurs and the tears spill from the sides of my eyes. This is what you do to me. But no, you dont know it. You do this to me without even realising it. You're draining the life outta me with each passing day, with each phone call, with each word we exchange, with each look you give me.

I must be really good at hiding all the hurt isn't it, to the point you dont even sense this at all. Sometimes i listen to your words and i wonder if you even know the kind of damage your flippant comments could cause. Guessed i made a bad judgement call about you. Didn't think youd be such an insensitive soul.

Maybe i should tell you to stop bothering me, tell you that youre driving me to the brink of insanity. And when im gone, youll find someone else to substitute me, someone else who can cure that darkness in your heart. You'll find that damn chio girl youve been silently watching out for and maybe youll find the guts to talk to her. Since you are so fond of reminding me how youll never settle for any one else, then perhaps thats when you'll find true happiness. When you decided to play around with my feelings, i think you failed to realise how much closer i am to that pit of darkness everyone thinks you'll fall into.

Hah or perhaps i am the insensitive one who doesnt realise that you are indeed in tons of trouble but im too caught up in my own troubles and drowing in my own sorrows to help. You're surrounded by friends, i hope they catch you before you fall in too deep...

But i cant throw away something i never had.